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"home to me is reality and all I need is something real"

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Name : LUST for the LOST
Age / Gender : 21 / Female
Location : Illinois - US
City : North Chicago
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Joined : 03/27/06 2:51PM Last online : 11/20/08 12:29PM
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Sexuality : Heterosexual Marital : Single
Drink? : Socially Style : Prick
Smoke? : No Personal site : n/a
Ethnicity : Caucasian    
My crush : I don't really crush.

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I've been thinking lately about random stuff I want to put on here, but right now, I'm just not sure..

[eyepop]Pink for Pertinent


I am;

Loyal
Karen
Loving
Caring
Snippy
Driven
Gullible
Friendly
Reliable
Devoted
Often harsh
Very critical
Challenging
Accountable
Strongwilled
Only human
A good friend
Overly realistic
Mostly guarded
Trying to change
Usually mistaken
Sometimes cruel
Generally cynical
Rarely vulnerable
Incredibly indecisive
Always understanding
Somewhat demanding
Occasionally longwinded
Consistently commenting
Intermittently a phone-whore
Completely aware of my faults

And I expect much of the same from my friends...



I go through my daily life looking for something but expecting not to find it.


Home


New Home

I go to graduate school in North Chicago.

I'm getting my PhD in Biomedical Science.

Before you left I said that you can bet I'll be bothering you soon.
You said, "No bother, please do."
I've called you twice.
It's been a hellish fight to not think about you all the time,
Sitting around waiting for your call.
Likes
Baking
Grapes
Comments
Alliteration
Paper Stars
Collar bones
My best friend
Hooded zip ups
Particular voices
Stand up comedy
Baking for everyone
Cooking dinner for others
Smooth skin and good hugs
Exhaustion induced delirium
Procrastination via technology
Watching football and baseball
Text messaging and phone calls
Laughing with friends, or strangers
Tomatoes or cucumber based salads
Mail of any sort, sending and/or receiving
The sense of completion after a long hard day
Writing short stories/anecdotes that you can read if you'd like
Making fun of old pictures and reminiscing about the good times


I find sarcasm and bluntness refreshing in a world where almost everybody is pretending to be something they're not. (I try not to be as negative as I may sound)


I love my dog.

There's always time for a mindless activity (aka TV)

I wake up to find it's another
Four aspirin morning, and I dive in
I put on the same clothes I wore yesterday.
When did society decide that we had to change
And wash a tee shirt after every individual use:
If it's not dirty, I'm gonna wear it.
Dislikes
DirecTV
Fanatics
Studying
Pussyfooting
Avoidable drama
Belligerent drunks
Chewable vitamins
Waking up for class
Eating lunch outside
Lab training modules
Unsteady friendships
Falling asleep in class
Stuff stuck in my teeth
My feet always being dirty
Feeling obsessed and/or clingy
The aftertaste from chocolate or coffee
Inhaling other people's cigarette smoke
Customer Service and being put on hold
My little cousins being whores on MySpace
When commercials are louder than tv shows
All of my electronics deciding to break at the same time


Breathe in, breathe out. Let go. I don't know what I'm sorry for, but I am sorry.

Having too much free time allows me to think about all that I truly detest.

I'm uneasy, And I'm weak in the knees
And I'm trying not to breathe
Not believing, Not believing you're gone
And that I was the one to let you
Music
I spend more time watching TV than listening to music, but sometimes it feels like my life needs a soundtrack so I blast the music out. I listen to music when I'm doing anything in the bathroom, even if it's for 2 minutes I turn the radio on. I try to remember my mp3 player when I'm in my lab because it makes time fly. Pandora.com is making my life exponentially better.

Oh boy, the only things I don't listen to are screaming, LOTS of screaming until your vocal cords bleed is not ok with me and most techno because it gives me a headache after a little while. I like WORDS that aren't SCREAMED or ELECTRONIC.


It's going to take me two years to get through my NetFlix list, but here's what I've been watching lately:

1. Jarhead
2. A History of Violence
3. Evelyn
4. Domino
5. The Usual Suspects
6. Prime
7. Fever Pitch
8. Hearts in Atlantis
9. Lucky Number Slevin
10. Y Tu Mama Tambien
.
.
.
580. Death at a Funeral
581. The Brave One
582. Mama's Boy
583. Watching the Detectives
584. Bride and Prejudice
585. Resident Evil: Extinction
586. War Inc.
587. Get Smart
589. Their Eyes Were Watching God
590. Hellboy II
591. The Secret Life of Bees
592. Role Models
593. Zack and Miri Make a Porno
594. Rachel Getting Married


Please make movie recommendations!


Stupid Best Friends:

Give me that line again
He's now coming home again tonight
Momma wipe those tears from your cheeks
It don't make no difference now

Remind me one last time
that you won't never ever ever go
Whoa
The whales can't swim without the tide
and birds won't fly without the stars in the sky

And I can't feel without your touch
I can't dream without your smile
I can't live without your love
Oh Momma
No I cannot fall without your hand
and I can't cry without your arms
I can't live without your love
Oh Momma

Give me that song again
Hold me closer than you ever did before
When i've given all i'll give you more
We'll keep on floating to the shore
You can take the storm and turn it all around
And then the sun shines through
The story of your life
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
We have all been design
But you're as real on the outside Momma

And I can't feel without your touch
I can't dream without your smile
I can't live without your love
Oh Momma
No I cannot fall without your hand
and I can't cry without your arms
I can't live without your love
Oh Momma

See when it all comes back aorund
And you still can't figure out
How we let you get away
You just keep your head up high
And know it's better off that way,
And know it's better off that way,
And know it's better off that way

And I can't feel without your touch
I can't dream without your smile
I can't live without your love
Oh Momma
No I cannot fall without your hand
and I can't cry without your arms
I can't live without your love
Oh Momma
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switchblade- Nov 19, 8:03 pm
lol.
in fact, it can hold up to 200lbs.
i just pointed out that its for lightweight people
because they could hold their balance pretty well
and run like a hamster in it. ;p

trepidation's reply:
hmmm this is very true.
that's fun though!
CupidDeLocke Nov 19, 3:00 pm
I made Peanut butter chocolate chunk cookies.
they were pretty good.
How'd that stuff turn out?

trepidation's reply:
oh and I want a cookie.
dave_the_wop Nov 18, 11:06 pm
ive realized that i dont want to be a teacher at all lol

trepidation's reply:
what do you want to be!?
CupidDeLocke Nov 18, 2:53 pm
:D

<3

trepidation's reply:
I made pumpkin pie and pumpkin cheesecake yesterday =\
dave_the_wop Nov 17, 8:28 pm
yeah they suck huge

trepidation's reply:
but it's better to have an idea of what you're going to be doing, that going in completely blind, right? A necessary evil :(
dave_the_wop Nov 17, 5:06 pm
lesson planning, im a practice teacher

trepidation's reply:
awww that's really cute. I remember when all of my teachers and my mom complained about lesson plans. BOO :(
switchblade- Nov 17, 2:24 am
its suffocating after five minutes. </3
i was in it for ten minutes.
i started sweating and panting
after moving sooo much. |:
its not for people over 100lbs.
hence, i couldnt stand or run like a hamster in a ball. ;/

trepidation's reply:
oh man, not for me then :(
switchblade- Nov 17, 12:13 am
haha. i just wanted to stand up
but the inflated ball hates me. |:

trepidation's reply:
I want to try one!
CupidDeLocke Nov 16, 11:56 pm
you will <3

trepidation's reply:
weeeeeeeee!
Drewsome Nov 16, 11:17 pm
lol picture where I'm in the white hoodie and giving the shocker was taken in the Rat right after a scorpion bowl !!!

trepidation's reply:
See, OBLIGATORY!
what did you major in?


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