First things first. I am not here to be the Top Girl on this site. I am here to mkae friends and chk out other's photos. With that said, hello!
So, what peaked your interest? What made you decide to sit back, and actually READ someone's profile. Maybe you do it all the time, or maybe, just maybe, you want to know how a twisted mind works. Well, so do I.
I guess I'll tell you a bit about myself. I'm eighteen years old, I live in Grain Valley, MO, with my boyfriend and his parents. This is kind of the first place I've ever lived out of my mom's house, and freedom is great. All though, living with your significant other really isn't all it's cracked up to be. You fight, ( a lot ) and you learn those little things about them that make you stop and say, "What was I thinking?!" But, if you really want to make things work, you're gonna hev to make sacrificers, on both ends, to make your relationship work.
I don't have a job yet, and I really need one. Right now I get by with babysitting for Chris' sister's kids every week. Not a whole lot of $$$, but it's enough.
Here are some random facts about moi:
***I have been growing my hair for over 6 years, and have no intentions of cutting it anytime soon.
***I dye my hair too much.
***I have been known to be exceptionally happy.
***...also extremely pissy....or depressed. Pick one, I guess, :D.
***I'm in love with the greatest guy ever.
4/20/2005 Wednesday 8:35 AM
Hey all!!! I'm in art now and we're getting a lil' study hall! So I decided I'd stop and check on my profile....Not much has happened....A few weeks ago I went 2 the movies wtih my mom and her fiance (SHES GETTING MARRIED!!!) and my future step sis and my real sis and Brenna(friend from skool)and saw the ring 2. The movie was kickass, but i think I should start @ the beginning.....
My family and I went out 4 pizza b4 the movie and Tiara's ex who has a 'thing' for both of us, came into the pizza place and heard me talking to sara(future sis) bout tiara meeting us @ the movies (tiara never showed up) and he followed me to the movies and up into the balcony. If it were'nt 4 Andy and her future BF shawn, he weoulda been sitting next 2 me and brenna! And everytime he'd get up he'd try and move closer till Shawn switched spots with Andy and me with brenna so i was sitiing in the corner. The movie was kick-ass!!!
I G2G!!! BYE 4 NOW!!
~!*Lizz*!~
Friday June 3 1:35 AM
Yeah yeah yeah, go to bed already!!! Today I went to the doctor and he took my bad nail off and damn was that painfull! Well, I guess I'm glad skool's out. I get 2 hang out with the few friends in Decatur I have lol. Well, there's Michael, my drinkin' buddy, and Kira, she's stayin with me till July 4th, and Cody aka Peckerhead. And I guess you could call him my boyfriend? He asked me out, I said yes. Which brings me to a big turning point in my life. There's Danny, who I really like and I don't want to hurt him, but then there's Cody, ho Ive had the biggest crush on for like 4 years, is my age, and is here(and does not know!!! So STFU!! PLEEASE!!). I just....I don't know what to do anymore. I haven't talked to Danny for a while...I don't know WHAT to tell him!!! Everytime I think about it I get this knot in my stomach and the more I think about it, it spreads and gets worse and worse!
I don't know what to do guys! I'm SO mixed up!!! If I have to go through this much longer, I might do something drastic....But I hope it doesn't come to that....Just pray 4 me, okay? Thanks all!!
Lizz
Monday, July 18, 2005.
Hey. Not much happening, just catchin up with old friends and net surfing. Anyone out there who has ever had a friend who stabbed them in the back more than once, I totally feel you. Anyone like that should just fucking kill themselves already. Do the world a favor and jump off a fucking bridge.
Grow the fuck up.
UPDATE!!! Hey all, yeah, i know, i havent been on much. Been busy. Loads to tell, not much space. ill make a list: the last thing you knew, i was dating a cody. that lasted about 5 days. and as far as im concerned, it never happened. he was seen holding hands with some fat trashy chik in the park. yeah, nice, huh?
the whole danny thing, if you wondered, still the same. i dont talk to him, he dont talk to me. hope hes doin good where hes at, last i heard he was living with his gf in missouri. good 4 him, honest.
i am 16! and i had a lil party @ my grammas. invited some of my friends, too. it was fun, but, im NEVER playing truth or dare again. You can just use your imagination to figure that one out...
My stepdad died, two days before the wedding. he had an embelysm(?) in his brain. two days of life support, then poof. gone. it was hell for my mom, it was hell for all of us. and i still miss him. he was sometimes nicer to me than my own father.
my mom was diagnosed with lymphoma. and she has to have chemo.
we're moving, most likely to southern missouri. but with moms chemo, i think its gonna b put on hold...indefinetly.
im dating again...sort of. hes my grade and uhh....my parents hate him. they think we're 'friends.' Heh..whoops...
im leaving now cuz the comp app teacher is being a nosy bitch again.
p.s. im failing every class, why can't i drop out?!
Hey all! 3-17-06
So much has happened lately! First off, my mom found out about Uwe and I, she likes him. And we're doin' great, by the way. He's the best thing I've ever had in my entire life. He's pretty close to perfect. Except he smokes. He's trying to cut back for me, but still. He's already got blood pressure problems. That's how my stepdad died. He didnt take his medicine enough and he had a seizure from it. I don't want that to happen to Uwe, it would tear my world apart.
Today he met me after class and I could tell something was wrong. See his ex(before you go on, ya gotta know a few things. His ex, Sam, we just call her MSUD. For Mega Sasquatch Uber Dyke...anyway, shes hated me from the day she moved here, like 5 years ago. For no reason. And now that Uwe and I are together, she wants me dead. Anywy...) He said that she was at it again. This time, it was about me. She was glad that my stepdad died. Pretty fucking mature, isn't it? One warning. Thats it. Shed better watch her fucking back. Because if I hear her badmouth my family once, I'll fucking snap. I am in no mood. She can badmouth me all she wants. She wants to insult me? I'll listen to every word she has to say. She can call me a bitch, she can call me a boyfriend stealer. He DUMPED her ass way before he asked ME out. And yeah, I AM a bitch. Get fucking used to it, kay?
Thanks for lettin me vent all, I gotta do that every once in a while. More often now than usual...oy. Im out!
11-13-06
Hey pplz! I knoow, been forever since we spoke. List comin up...
We Moved to Mount Ayr. I go to the regular high school, and Uwe attends south central academy, known as Alternative. He goes 3 hours a day and hes doin really well.
As you mighta guessed, yeah, we're still together. He lives with me now, in case you didn't know that. Though I constantly have to tell people that he isnt my brother....
Classmate: Isn't that Uwe guy your brother? He's scary.
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Me: He's not scary...Wait, he's not my brother, he's my boyfriend!
Classmate: Really?
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Me: Yeah.
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Classmate: Where's he live then?
Me: In my house.
Classmate: In the same room?
Me: Yeah...
Classmate: WHere does he sleep?
Me: In my bed, with me...*
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Classmate: Does your mom know?!
Me: Well. I can't really hide him in my closet.
Recently, I've changed a bit. I was tlking over the internet with Uwe's sis, Rena, and she brought a few thing up.
1. I'm a lot more confident.
2. I'm much more of a bitch.
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3. I've started smoking.
4.I drink more.
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5. And she called me the biggest stoner ever...SO!
The first two things I can give half the credit to Uwe. If not for him, I wouldn't have the confidence I have today. And I have to put up with him all day. Hence the reason for the bitchyness. J/k, Love him to death. Okay, the next two things are also thnks to Uwe.....And the last was my choice. Uwe stopped smokin pot for me for 7 months straight. And then I asked my mom if I could try it. She said it was fine, but I wasn't going to let it control me. And I asked Uwe if he'd like to do it again. And he picked me up and squeezed the shit ou of me. Gee, ur welcome babe. Lol. Well, gotta run, class is almost over. I got Tools of Mutimedia now. I LOVE it!!!
11/17/06
this has been the worst weekend ever...friday nite, uwe and chevy and i went to chad kingrey's for a party. we'd also gotten stoned first, and then drank MD 20/20 b4 we got there. so that plus 7 beers, i was toasted. i ended up making out with ashley burton, switching shirts with chevy, and folling on the floor numerous times. My beer also kept getting moved around, and then it looked like someone had dumped baby powder on the side, or maybe flicked ashes in it. so i asked chad for a cup to pour it in to make sure there wasnt any ashes in it. and he said oh no...it's fine, just drink it. so, it was my 5th beer, i didnt care. so i drank it. and then i felt really strange after a while. but i thought it was just because i'd taken my meds that morning....and then chevy kept grabbing my boob, and chad kept hitting on me, and uwe was talking to chris, and i tried to stay with him, and around kayla n the other girls, but....chevy went home about 11:30, and me n uwe walked home about 12. so we got there, chevy was upstairs(he lived w/us 4 about a week and a half) in his boxers. throwing up and crying, saying im sorry its all my fault. cause supposedly his x-gf was pregnant, n he wanted somebody to lay there with him. so everyone left and i was there with him, uwe said he told me to sit there until he fell asleep, then to come to his bed, but..i was so drunk, and i cant remember ll that happend. i just know that he put his hand on my leg and started rubbing it, and squeezing my butt, and trying to touch me, and all i could say was please stop. and hed stop for a while, and his hand would go up my shirt, and i told him to stop, and then he kept sayin how sorry he was, and that he didnt mean to, and hed do it again, and then he told me he loved everything about me, and that is was really hard to accept that i belonged to uwe, that it was so hard for him to not have me, and i asked him, dont you love ashley(his gf) he said, i like her, shes great, but shes not you, and then he started holding me down and kissing me and trying to pull my pants down, and i was so scared i just kept crying and telling him to stop, and i was shaking so much, and finnally he stopped, and we went to sleep. i should've moved, i shouldv'e yelled, i should've told uwe sooner. but chevy told me not to tell him because it would make things weird bettween them. I shouldn't have listened to him. uwe found out sunday, i told him a little of what happened, and then monday night is when i told him everything. or at least tried to. he said he didnt care, that id lied to him three times already, that he couldnt believe one word i said. and i asked him, if you've ever cared about me, then believe me. and he said, i DID care. and i asked him and you dont care anymore? he sad no. i asked him, do you still love me at all? and he said, my heart is full of grudge and hate. no. i dont. and then he picked up the picture of me and him and tore it in half. and now he says he hates me, that he cant stand me anymore. and i cant help but feel that its true. i know that people say things they dont mean when theyre mad, but i think hes telling the truth this time. he hates me now. one week before our ten month aniversary, and he says that. is it really over? and if it isnt, i know thingsll never be the same. i love him so much, i really do, i would do anything to make him see that. he's the only person im meant to be with, i know it. if you really love someone, it never goes away. i asked him once you love me as much now as before? he said: i love you more now. and i asked him if hed love me forever? he said he would. and i asked: no matter what happens? and he said no matter what, i will always love you. but i dont know what to believe. that he still loves me, and he just needs time? or that he could care less, and my mother will have to convince him every day and night now to leave, to give it time, because time heals all wounds. i thought he was the one, i KNOW he IS the one, i just hope he realizes it before its too late.... Please, please, even if you dont believe, pray for me. Please.
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friday december 1 2006
loads to tell. first off, uwe and i are together. it was reallyrockythere for a couple days, but we pulled through. he said he was staying and going to worl things out with me no matter how hard it got. and chevy finally got his stuff.and emily just mises him soooo much, cause she just loved him to death....i understand her, okay? imiss the good side of chevy. the one who would goof off with uwe, and hang out w/ uwe and just be cool. but, after he did what he did, its really hard for me to think of him as uwe's best friend...because, if he repescted uwe that much, he wouldn't have done that to him. or me.
well, back to uwe and I. we're back in our room now, and hes back to nagging at me to clean my half and do my laundry, and im back to bugging him to the point he just gives up and bugs rght back. like last night. i was up untill 10 trying to finish afamily tree, and got so goofy from....i dont know yet. but i was loopy. okay, anyway, i go upstair and get ready for bed, and start joking around with uwe, and he calledme a dork. and i said, well, im YOUR dork. and he said....nope. just a dork. so i started shaking him and saying 'say im your dork, damnit! say it!!' and then i started jumping on himsaying" im your whale penis, gddamnit! admit it!" and he laughed so hard he started coughing. and then i said"Uwe. I am your wheel panis. I am your wheel panis vorfever." and then we both started laughing. ha. vorfever...now all i have do to is say "Vorfevver." and hell crack upagain...i mised that a lot, y 'know? just goofing off with him? its nice every once in a while to let loose, be an idiot....then...
GET STONED!....lol..not this time lol.....just...
GET LAID! Heh heh heh...and
that, i DID do.
'Ello, Jello... So. Been a while. Y'know what? I realized I have so many damn typos on here. It ain't even funny anymore...Gotta fix that. Well, It's 4:01 AM. Spring break started last Thursday. Uwe spent the whole thing at his mom's, but tat's okay cause he got home tonigh...Last night..Yesterday. Anyway, I can't sleep. I need a cigarette. And life? How about summing it up in five words or less? It sucks royal ass. For everyone. As perfect as your life may seem, look a little closer. You'll find something that torks you off, too. Ehh, maybe I just need sleep.
So yesterday. Me, Robin, and Rena were walkin to Pamida to buy laundry soap and Chad Kingrey started honking at us. So we had to stop and say hi. Chad's awesome. First person I met here in Mount Ayr, him and Zack Hall. Also, his was the first party I went to. But we're not gonna go there again, cause I'll go on and on...And that'll be...dumb? Ah hell, I don't know. Anywhozits. We saw Chad, and I saw Kim, and Dakota and Miraccle and Liberty and Ashley Dale. It was a big ol' reunion. But not at the same time.....Wait...Then it wouldn't be a 'reunion.'.....Oh well. I'm off 4 now.
10-25-07
Oh my.....Loads to tell you.
Moved back to Decatur.
I am a SENIOR! WHOOP WHOOP!!!
I got brutally DUMPED over the summer by someone whom I loved dearly. You know who you are. And he also knows that I did not cause his downfall. He made his own mistakes.
I'm with someone new. Someone who I gave one more chance at being my friend, and now I care very deeply for him. You know who you are....I'm his [color=#33FFFF](secret) cowgirl.
Only problem is that thiongs are kinda rocky now....There's a lot of rumours going around that he's cheating on me. He has alibis, and I have no hard evidence. I know I should follow m heart, but I don't understand what its saying anymore. I gotta run... Later...[/color]
O.M.G. Been a while, huh? Well, here'd a short list of all the things that have gone on...That whole Chevy thing? Psshhtt...How long did you think I could kid myself?! Ha! Anyway, I dropped outta school, I know, GASP!, and i gt a job, I met a guy @ work who, after one month of chasing me around, finally gt me to go out with him, and we've been inseperable ever since. I know, weird, right? I never though i could be this happy! But I am, and I have to say, it totallly rocks. Hardcore. I love him with all my heart and wouldn't trade him fr the world. His name is Chris, he'd 21, and I'm liveing with him in Independence. Well, anouther thing that happened is I found out I have precancerous cells in my cervix, and had to have a biopsy done, and now I have to get the bad cells frozen off. I'm not that scared, it ain't that big a deal yet, but I'm worried about my future. Chris and I are planning on settling down, geting married, and haveing a couple of kids someday. What if our aplns can't happen? What if I can't have kids from this? Ooh, I will be SO pissed. And you know what girls, watch out. That whole HPV leading to cervical cancer? Totally possible. That's how I got it. And to who GAVE me fucking HPV, I swear to GOD if this affects me and Chris' ability to have a family, you won't have to worry about him. Because I'LL hunt your skeazy, man whore ass down, wherever the fuck you are, and I'll rip your shit OFF There. I feel better. Well, that just about sums it up I guess. Will fill in the next time I'm online. Luvers you all!!!
Thursday, Oct 30, 08
Hey home fry! What's crackin? Not much here, I got some new photos posted on my sites, something I've been meaning to do for a while now.
Been playing World of Warcraft, Chris got me into it, and one of his friends is paying for my acct, which I totally appreciate. I'm up to a level 23 Dranei Hunter, which isn't bad, considering I've been playing for about a week.
Haven't been up to much, this'll be the first halloween that I haven't done anything. We were hopin to get drunk, but now we're gna stay and pass out candy. Damn kids, lol.
Haven't smoked in a while, there were a couple of busts, one in Mexico, and one in St. Joseph. The one in Mexico wassupposedly 300,000 lbs. So it's pretty fuckin dry.
Still loking for a job, me and Chris both. Been talking about a studio apt for out first place, which I wouldn't mind, as long as we can afford it.
So all-in-all, I guess I'm doing okay, I guess. Been pretty good. I'm alot happier now, sometimes I get down, but don't everypone? Well, that's about it. Till then, sweeties!
Haters, racist people, sexist people, "all thats", ppl who push for sex, and cheaters. Oh ya and you! lol lets see.ppl who judge you by the way you dress or the way you look or the way you talk for gods sake! stop being fucking jackass cowards and GET A LIFE! omfg---guys with hairy backs....god they look like freakin apes! get a razor and SHAVE IT OFF!!!!!!! disgusting!
My nose. I hate it! My parents wont let me get a nose job though.....Damn this world of expense!!!
Drunks. People who get drunk ALL the time... I'm sorry, but I can't stand someone who will wake up and first thing in the am they drink to their dying hearts content.
Posers. EVERY kind. If your heart aint in what you do, dont try and pull it off. EVERYONE can tell!!!!!
The dentist...*shudders* I have to get my wisdom teeth and a baby tooth that never came in pulled soon. Last time I went, they gave me the gas that relaxes you and let me listen to my Crossfade CD on full blast the entire time. I fell asleep!!!
I'm not a fan of "hooking up". i think any guy who's not willing to wait for you the rest of forever just isn't worth it at all...
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