Real Member LipsOfMorphine (Offline)

FOR THE RECORD, I AM NOT NEW.
I'VE BEEN ON REALPICS FOR A LONG TIME.





.The REAL bRandi.
.Look at one day of life through my eyes.

Okay.. so this is me. It takes a lot for me to open up to someone. If I begin talking to someone, I can pretty much tell right away whether or not I will get along with them. I get annoyed very easily. I hate fucking e-drama, it's pointless. I hate when people think they know me. I've been through a lot of shit in my life, I promise your "hard life" won't even begin to compare to mine. I can't handle heartbreak. I will not beat around the bush when it comes to anything. If I don't like you, you'll know it. If I do like you, I will treat you like family. Sometimes I don't understand the way people think. I can come off as a bitch, probably because I am. I hate the fact that I can't seem to be happy no matter how hard I try. Even when I'm having the best day ever, something always seems to fuck it up. I would like to consider myself a smart person. I did pretty well in high school and I am relativly street smart, I don't fuck around. I love the fact that I have met some amazing people online, some I would consider my best friends. I know I can be a jealous person, I can't help that when I like something I see, I go for it. I've always been the person that everyone leans on when they're down. I like to keep it that way. I feel that if I am helping others that one day someone will be able to do the same for me. I keep a lot of things to myself. I am a strong believer in karma. The thing I hate the most is being ignored. I would rather someone tell me that they don't want to talk to me than not say anything to me at all. Be straight forward. I am an emotional person, yet not emo. When I think things in my life can't get any worse, something else always seems to happen. I can't get away from death, it lurks in my shadow. I've had more people die on me in the past two years then anyone should have to go through in a life time.

I use to wish all the time that I could find the perfect person for me. It was beginning to look like an impossible challenge.
Just when things seem to be looking up, they seem to fail.




Yeah, we're better than you.. DEAL WITH IT.
This is what I look like.


I have big knockers and a tight ass, I may not seem classy, but you're a piece of trash.

Girl on Girl action, don't you wish you were me?
We're into gettin' drunk, as you can see.


The DOLLAR STORE, because you're a whore.

MSN convo's like this..
~N!gHtMaRe~ **Getting ready to go to gym *** !!!! says:
im stupid then
~N!gHtMaRe~ **Getting ready to go to gym *** !!!! says:
but how?
~N!gHtMaRe~ **Getting ready to go to gym *** !!!! says:
like
~N!gHtMaRe~ **Getting ready to go to gym *** !!!! says:
from outside or im
~N!gHtMaRe~ **Getting ready to go to gym *** !!!! says:
in
[[bRandi]].. too far away for me to hold. says:
like the top
[[bRandi]].. too far away for me to hold. says:
lol
[[bRandi]].. too far away for me to hold. says:
flex and kiss it lol
~N!gHtMaRe~ **Getting ready to go to gym *** !!!! says:
rofflll
~N!gHtMaRe~ **Getting ready to go to gym *** !!!! says:
omg ur a silly
~N!gHtMaRe~ **Getting ready to go to gym *** !!!! says:
hold on
[[bRandi]].. too far away for me to hold. says:
kay.

with this end result..

whores.

I like all kinds of music... seriously.

.MYSELF.
http://media.putfile.com/I-miss-you-29
Panic! at the disco
Matchbook Romance
Greenday
Narvana
Incubus
2 Pac
A Heart Well Ending
Aaliyah
Ashanti
Avenged Sevenfold
Boys II Men
Rascal Flatts
Chevelle
Crossfade
Eminem
Eve
Fuel
The Used
Jagged Edge
Journey
Kanye West
Keith Urban
Mariah Carey


Shimmer


She calls me from the cold
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable
And all that she intends
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label
She says she's ashamed
And can she take me for awhile
And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past
But maybe I'm not able
And I break at the bend

We're here and now, but will we ever be again
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

She dreams a champagne dream
Strawberry surprise, pink linen and white paper
Lavender and cream
Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her
She says that love is for fools who fall behind
And I'm somewhere in between
I never really know
A killer from a savior
'Til I break at the bend

It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...

Guess I'll let it go