Well about me....mmm what to say, well im from this little island called england, its no so bad here, people are quickly to diss it who live here but we are alot more fortunate then other countries.
I am 23 and I am a trainee personal trainer, I am also a singer/ songwriter.
those two things combined are what drive me.
I am very into my morales and I dont do drugs, smoke drugs, smoke and now I have cut down my alcohol consumption, I used to drink alot regulary but now I am only drinking for special occasions.
My name's Donny or you can call me lake or dodge.
I love working out and being fit and active, I love martial arts and combat sports and music is my inner passion.
I train different disciplines 4 times a day, I run, cycle, swim in mornings, weights abit later, then I do technigue work in kickboxing followed by yoga in evening.
ill write more soon......
If Only
Year 10
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and I handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Year 11
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Sixth Form
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said, he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, "Thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
University
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before Everyone went home; she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "You're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!” She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I Don’t know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! ..I wish I did too..... I thought to my self, and I cried.
I feel like I’m lost in a world with no direction, it hurts too much to cry without you. All I can do is stand and stare at what was once you. That box in the ground. I wanted to climb inside with you. I want to hear those words I LOVE YOU, come from your mouth. But I know it will never happen. I still act out in my mind me and you being together. I act out you saying yes and us being together for the rest of our lives. I carried on looking but still never found anyone like you. I don’t know what hurts the most me knowing I could have had you or you not knowing I loved you. Heaven has gained an angel but earth has lost a Gem. As soon as heavens gates open ill be looking for you. This time I will let you know. Only then will this vice let go of my heart and once again allow it to beat again.
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I know your sitting there probably thinking damn i better do something, if you are then please do it, nothing worse then waiting and holding back, take that chance and tell that someone how you feel cause you don’t want to end up like this story, you get 1 shot at life and one shot only, make the most of it and live it.
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